No one permanently rests on the event horizon of a catharsis. So, if a crash-out or “open ranting” is what attracts customers, then at some point people begin spoofing the personality of the ranter and crash-out in order to keep business going. The audience wants continuous dramatic catharsis — not one to three episodes followed by someone moving on with their life.
This is the inevitable result of monetization-adaptation culture, especially when coupled with the rising cost of living. The market ultimately forbids artistic growth, since whatever is attracted unto you expects more of the same. If you grow past the person you were when you began the journey, you also grow right out of the “success” of attention. Reaching a place where you no longer need that kind of attention is the growth that frees you from the demon that led you there in the first place. But growing past the demon also means releasing “success” as most people understand it.
Whoever remains at that point simply enjoys the music and the way I express myself — whether they agree with it or not. I have satisfied the need for pleasure, camaraderie, hero approval, the display of endeavors that draw attention, and the externalization of internal battles — enacted as a psychodrama in which the “voices of society” were attacked in direct response to the accumulated wounds of existence. This is the place beyond the journey to become.
When you witness people pursuing their goals and sharing them publicly, you are witnessing a psychodrama. They gather attention and approval, then face the test of how much they will compromise to maintain it. They are subjected to behavioral conditioning, receiving positive reinforcement for their best foot forward — typically a skill or a relatable persona. From there, they navigate between compartmentalized components of self to satisfy needs according to the social exchanges required to serve them.
One attempts to slay the first demon by achieving success and approval. This, however, gives rise to a second demon — an inversion of the first. The first demon craves approval and success; the second manifests as the chains imposed by the very conditions of that success.