The Why

Having spoken of the dissolution of self and its physical effects described phenomenologically, I will add a few points that expand on this topic.

If someone has an experience that pierces or dissolves an existing belief or structure that provides a stable comfort or felt sense of meaning, they may begin to show the initial signs of the process. This would be identifying the belief or structure in shared reality (myth) that has now revealed itself as “not delivering or existing as portrayed.”

This first step alone will cause the social containment protocols to activate around you, in the form of shaming, accusations of being unwell, assertions of moral deviation, claims of character deficiency, etc. A more intense version of the symptoms of beginning the process is to directly attack, either by essay, speech, or profanity, the failing myth or social prop. This is interpreted by others as “anger,” and is where you will encounter the first direct warnings from the collective structure.

The reason for this response is that throughout history others have had experiences that fracture the structures that lay upon the foundation of raw consciousness and the will of nature within. However, not everyone reacts identically, and the reactions vary in intensity and potential for destructive behavior inward or outward.

Since many people are not aware of this biological (bio‑spiritual) transformation, where the structures of meaning are removed from the narrative and symbolic layer of the mind, leaving one to experience the raw current of consciousness, their collective response protocols assume that a mysterious ailment, illness, or psychiatric emergency is occurring (and is, based on observation without knowledge of what is happening). This is where societal containment protocols are forewarned, i.e., you might need to see a therapist or psychiatrist, you might require institutionalization, etc.

The problem with these systems is that the people in authority within them have not undergone the process themselves, and therefore only act upon patients from a position of having studied them as objects. The answer to what is happening, I believe, rather lies in phenomenological study of self.

A metaphor for this might be: The most suitable person appointed to speak to those with major addiction problems is likely someone at a master level of recovery from the same predicament themselves.

Historically, the shaman would be someone who understood that the society, village, or culture in which they found themselves was built upon shared symbol and narrative. However, they would also be aware that there was an undercurrent of raw instinct, will, and energy that cannot be experienced directly absent those surface structures without risking a psychosis‑like reaction.

This is why such a person occupying the position of shaman would assess the level of consciousness and maturity in their pupil before walking them through the process to see the illusions that govern life itself.

These illusions are structures that provide a landscape for consciousness to emerge with scaffolding in place.

For young children, trauma in the form of violent beatings or sexual torments causes a rapid dissolution of those structures, which usually results in the instantaneous replacement with the enforcer’s worldview or imposed mental framework (Alice Miller covers this to a degree in her own words in the book For Your Own Good).

So generational trauma is actually the handing down of the imprinting that is, in effect, the expression of chaotic rage your ancestors exhibited when confronting the void themselves. The control over children and abuse of them is a coping strategy adults unconsciously use in order to displace their inherited terror that emerged when they too perceived the void underneath narrative structures.

This is why terror and trauma are tools of brainwashing and mind control, since they remove a structure in the mind, expose the void, and force the victim to decide, “You either take the void, or you take my hand and believe me.” Some take the void, which leads to further beatings or death. Many take the hand.

When people begin to dissect or deconstruct identity formation, sexual gender roles, reproduction roles or policies, or religious scaffolding, they are in effect setting off multiple levels of alarms within the human operating system on both individual and collective levels.

This automatically causes unconscious reformation protocols to emerge from opposing tribes, leading to the continual political back‑and‑forth battling across time, which we see regularly. Normally, when one pulls just one of these strings, they usually fall back into a collectivized position based on their immediate felt sense of will.

Meaning, if they are noticing female mating strategies that deviate from Christian ideals, they double down on Christianity in a male‑revival sense; if they are noticing male mating strategy to mate‑guard and possess the female, they double down on feminine liberation; if they notice Christian doctrine inconsistency, they join the atheist alliance, etc.

These are all first‑level responses to “pulling one of the strings that leads to the void.” This loop is never ending and continually sends first‑level deconstructors back into the matrix.

The reason people respond to the issues of gender and reproduction in the collective political sense with such intensity is because the issue of reproduction is actually the lynchpin that, if removed, reveals the underlying will of nature in its raw form.

So the system self‑regulates by directing armies of ideological soldiers into opposing camps to continue the eternal war. The reproductive instinct is the most difficult aspect of human nature to contain within a system that enables stable civilization to occur. Therefore, to begin speaking of female nature as a red or black piller, or to expose the reality that wild, unrestrained female reproductive instinct and strategy is the kryptonite for any civilization system, brings about strong social consequences.

So what we have is the expanse of the void as a landscape of journey from structured collective consciousness towards individuated awareness, or meta‑cognition, that exposes the structures of meaning themselves as a training ground for consciousness, and emergency response teams (mostly unconscious agents, mental health professionals) ready to act upon those who show signs of possibly entering that expanse of initiation.

Understand? This is why some of you who begin the journey are apprehended by services and mental health professionals. These are agents who are trained to recognize you as a potential threat to yourself or public safety. The reason they see it this way is because the response to the void varies from person to person, and sometimes it can be extremely violent. It is not meant for everyone.

It is annoying to be conscious of it and to speak your mind, only to be constantly told the same one‑liners, “I hope you get well again, I hope you get mentally stable again, you are character deficient, you are in sin,” etc. However, this will likely never go away.

Those on the frontier of consciousness pay a high price for leaving the collective role imposed on them. MGTOW, red pill, black pill are, in reality, first‑level conduits that can lead to gnosis, but often get stuck in “collective outrage theater.”

Also, part of conquering a people is to kill their shamans so they lose contact with the knowledge above I have relayed. They don't want you to know that a structure imposed on you via conquering can be revealed as just that, an arbitrary structure.

Since we have no shamans, only mental health services, the price of journeying towards consciousness is quite high in this current epoch. It requires, quite literally, everything to be risked, including your life. There are multiple barriers on the journey, which are designed to direct you back towards the collective scaffolding.

In the past, people on the frontier of consciousness have been brutalized, tortured, subjected to inhuman testing, killed, or enslaved. The human operating system does not like to tolerate deviations from its collective assumption protocols. It does not accept ideas that emerge from unhinged consciousness until they can be integrated at scale.

All of these symptoms of schizophrenia and other “illnesses” are themselves the symptoms of receiving the raw currents of the energy and will of life—raw consciousness—directly into the processing unit without a stable structure to interpret them.

The manifestation of this occurrence is studied by observers and rarely reported on by those experiencing it, because those who can both experience it, interpret it, and put it into words are a rare minority of people who can “hold the current” without “disintegrating into madness.”